Death Filled Nightmare

As tears of blood fall, so do I.
I never did anything, but  when I die,
shadows come to claim...
My heart has filled with shame.
Of what I let fly,
of all the years that went by.
All I've said,
is if I'm dead,
all I want is a test...
Just to find my place to rest.
Now all I have to fear,
is if I'm really here.
Bloody tears drip as I close my eyes,
thinking back to lies.
They enclosed my life from time to time,
but still I did no crime...
I can't help but think,
how can I sink?
So low, so deep.
Instead of being dead, am I just...
asleep?